When I was in Petaluma at Art Is You, Sallianne and Ellen gave each of us three wish ribbons. You have a friend (or multiple friends) tie the ribbons on your left wrist, and you make a wish as each one gets tied on.As my first ribbon went on (tied on by the lovely Cathy Dorris), I wasn't really prepared to make my wishes. The first thing that came to mind was "I wish I could stay."
Later that day I missed my flight home.
I guess I should be careful what I wish for. The outcome in this case wasn't bad - I managed to get another flight, ended up staying in Petaluma an extra day, met up with wonderful friends, and generally made the best of my mistake.
I'm telling you this slightly embarassing story (I mean, really, who misses their flight?!?) because about a year and a half ago, I made another wish that didn't quite turn out as I'd expected. I wished to teach one class at Artfest. (You can read the wish post HERE.)
My wish to teach at just one art retreat turned into teaching at six events this year and quite a wild ride. It was amazing, but really not what I expected. I had the pleasure of meeting some of the most wonderful, creative, amazing people, and I wouldn't trade this year's experiences for anything.
But, remember that "be careful what you wish for" idea?
Well, if you read my last post and my growing pains post, you'll know that while I've been so thankful for everything that has happened this year, I've also been overwhelmed.
SO, after thinking and thinking (and even more thinking) over the last month, I made a decision yesterday (my 39th birthday!). I decided that I'll only be travelling to teach at one event next year (Art & Soul Vegas) which I've already contractually commited to. Long story short, I need a break to figure out where I'm headed before continuing on this ride. I need time to spend with my family and to make my art. I need to play and experiment and enjoy making some art for myself.
I am sure there are unexpected adventures coming up in 2012, but instead of planning my life out a year or more ahead of time, I'll be taking life as it comes.
Besides, my new friends tied on two more wish ribbons. Who knows what will happen?! ;)
hey shel - i'm sure you made the best choice for you. i am sure you will enjoy every moment of your family and art time in the new year. i can't wait to see what all that art time manifests!
ReplyDeleteI wish I had known it was your birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I can't wait to see what wonderful things await you this year. I only have one wish bracelet left! I hope your last two fall off soon!
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Awwww, Happy Belated Bday honey! and yes, you need to do what is best for you, and your family. And while I would not trade for the times we had together, I think we all totally understand. Sending bday hugs!
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That is what is so cool about goals - they keep changing. You followed your heart and along the way other doors open. I thought I wanted to be a professional family photographer. After my first few clients, I learned that scheduled shoots made me very nervous. It wasn't a confidence issue. I had people beg me to go into business. I discovered I didn't enjoy it when I was forced into interacting with clients. I don't like to try to please clients. I want them to be pleased with my work. That is a long way to say, sometimes you can't know if something is right for you unless you do it. If it is not right, move on. No shame in that at all.
ReplyDeleteSome we dont get what we wish for, we get what we need. ( It MUST be true because its a song lyric right??). Sometime you get what you wish for AND realize its not what you need or want all all.Good for you. iNow that you know what life on the road looks like, you can evalulate your options with more knowledge. You are an awesome teacher, so I hope you teach more, ( Maybe videos?) but follw your heart and it will get you where you need to be. happy birthday!
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday & I completely agree with your decision. Good for you for taking this time to figure it all out!
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Happy belated b'day! I got back from my art retreat on Sunday and thought I should check in on you via your blog. You are totally right to take time to evaluate and give time to your own art. Without feeding your own spirit--including family time--you won't have anything to give to your students and it will show. So wise, if difficult, decision. Hope to see you SOON. PLane
ReplyDeletegood for you. I'm sure not an easy choice to make but prolly the best for you and the fam...kiddies grow so fast, you don't wanna miss out on anything! Sometimes taking a step back makes bigger (more meaningful) things happen in the end.
ReplyDeleteyou'll still be attending artfest this year though yah?! :)
I thought I would return the visit and I am reminded that I am a wee bit warped like you! I am so glad to have gotten to know you at "Inspire My Life". We really need to get together for art play again!
ReplyDelete"i nest" was my code word, how cool is that!
You are really amazing, Shelly! You've had such an amazing year! You just nee to follow your heart and it will take you to some amazing places. Biggest of hugs my friend!
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